Too Much Stress

I am sure everyone has experienced stress before. My stress level is very low and the only way I can relieve it is to release it as anger.  I have reasons to be angry but the tension in my housing is one of the causes of my anger.  It may not be the best way to deal with stress and anger but it is better than imploding which then can trigger an episode.

Trying to deal with people who also have issues is making it almost impossible to stay on a fairly even way to control my mood swings. I am at a loss when it comes to having any sort of relationship with the people in my environment and it causes me internal distress and so I turn pent up emotions into angry outbursts which sometimes and sometimes not are alleviated but for the most part just feeds the way I feel.

Having to put one of the women in the hospital has proved to be one of the worst moves that I could have made, I did not really put her in but my actions did.  I called the organization who runs this house and they told me to call 911. If she had any control at all she could have talked her way out of the mess and moved on. She never should have gone off of meds at all but that was her own decision.

So now I have started cursing and insulting the other woman in the house but she also does the same to me and it goes around in circles. Neither of us can help ourselves when it comes to the issue of this woman who deliberately goes of meds and disrupts the whole house all because she wants to experience the high and lose half a ton of weight in 2 days.

This is a mess that I have to endure until I move hopefully in about a year.