Well now I have a new way of living. Living with my "gifts" of being Bipolar and my "curses".
I try to do some sort of craft everyday. Most of the time the drives take over anyway so I do crafts everyday, every night and every minute in between. My crafts club is on Tues o n Sunday my mood swings up high I do not know if this is because of the my new life or my moodswings have just changed so much They are now every other day so I swing up and down drastically. This wa a problem until I focused and realized that this was happening and they are even more rapid and precise they are very very regular so I pass from one pole to the other. My moodswings are not so drastic in intensity I am rarely suicidal badly depressed stay in bed barely moving but I do not attempt to take my life anymore so this is a blessing. But the drives are intense but predictable so I am learning when they will become a problem I cqan control most of the money spending even with unlimited online access to stores amd I have reduced coffee and soda consumption along with the increased sugar I had started so physically I am healthier. My Psoriasis is under control for the most part I find that inclement weather rain, snow and storms trigger activity in the symptoms but am learning to "taalk: my way out of a bad flareup.
So I am learning to live my new life and adjusting to the problems of Life and Living and I think I am doing a very good job of it. I am happier than I have been in so many years that I cannot remember what it was like during the bad times. Life has its ups and downs still without my moodswings and the highs and nlows and the ones in life I would be lost.
This is my life and I am loving it
Showing posts with label diagnosis. Show all posts
Showing posts with label diagnosis. Show all posts
Friday, January 20, 2017
Friday, June 17, 2016
Voices from the Past
HI
Been a while. I was just fooling around on the computer and ran across an old site which has closed sadly it was interesting but anyway I found an article o Bipolar Disorder a question Here it is, it has a comment that is in reference to these blogs which is why I am writing this now and a very big complement
Been a while. I was just fooling around on the computer and ran across an old site which has closed sadly it was interesting but anyway I found an article o Bipolar Disorder a question Here it is, it has a comment that is in reference to these blogs which is why I am writing this now and a very big complement
Monday, May 25, 2015
A True Mind Lost
John Nash: Subject of 'A Beautiful Mind' and His Wife Killed in New Jersey Crash, Police Say
The 86-year-old mathematician and his wife, 82-year-old Alicia Nash, died in a taxi crash on the New Jersey Turnpike Saturday
This gifted man fought the battle with a major mental disorder schizophrenia but continued to live a fulfilling life. He was an inspiration to all and will be remembered for all the mentally ill community for the truly beautiful mind.
Saturday, February 21, 2015
Understanding Different Mental Disorders
I have to confess that although I am bipolar with my own mental disorder I am lost when it comes to understanding other people with a different disorder.
Today we had a flood in the basement and it was found by a person with panic disorder. The panic episode became overwhelming to both of us. I did not understand why the screaming and hysterical behavior was part of her disorder. As I was trying to get emergency help the screaming became directed at me and I was totally lost for an understanding of what she was going through.
I have to say I do not understand much even though I writing about different disorders. This has shown me that I can not make people understand what I experience with my mood swings.
And so I have made a new resolution to not to not explain to others what I actually go through and trying to make them understand or for any empathy as to what I am going through during my episodes
I can not ask for help from others and have to control my symptoms the only thing that I can do. I can not control the disorder and so have to deal with the symptoms the best that I can.
Understanding mental disorders are difficult for me as it is for someone who does not have one.
And that is true of most people that is the differences in mental disorders.
You are never too old to learn the different mental disorders and today made me realize that I can not.
Today we had a flood in the basement and it was found by a person with panic disorder. The panic episode became overwhelming to both of us. I did not understand why the screaming and hysterical behavior was part of her disorder. As I was trying to get emergency help the screaming became directed at me and I was totally lost for an understanding of what she was going through.
I have to say I do not understand much even though I writing about different disorders. This has shown me that I can not make people understand what I experience with my mood swings.
And so I have made a new resolution to not to not explain to others what I actually go through and trying to make them understand or for any empathy as to what I am going through during my episodes
I can not ask for help from others and have to control my symptoms the only thing that I can do. I can not control the disorder and so have to deal with the symptoms the best that I can.
Understanding mental disorders are difficult for me as it is for someone who does not have one.
And that is true of most people that is the differences in mental disorders.
You are never too old to learn the different mental disorders and today made me realize that I can not.
Wednesday, February 4, 2015
Sharing Your Diagnoisis
I had decided to share my bipolar disorder to my close family members and organization that houses me and now I find that it was a mistake. Sharing information is only frustrating "normal" people are just unable to understand the complexities of bipolar disorder. Too often I hear " a lot of people have insomnia" or " your do not need as much sleep as you get older" or " everyone feels depressed sometimes" These comments are beginning to effect my moodswings even more making life more difficult than it should be.
Some people are just uncomfortable with the idea of having a mental disorder and I do not feel the need to tell all of my diagnosis ie. psychosis, suicidal thoughts and attempts etc. For me this sharing of information has not proven to help me at all. Some bipolars fell that they may need the support of their family or close friends but think before you do. Is this beneficial or will this cause more stress on you trying to explain your symptoms and how you feel to someone who really has no idea of how you feel or what your symptoms mean.
Times when I need comforting or for someone to step in when my financial affairs are a disaster are not received with the help that I need and having someone to talk to just creates more intense moodswings. Moodswings sometimes seem so normal that people often blow them off as normal feels especially hypomania and mild depression but we know how they can become worse without medical intervention. Sometimes we a placed in hospitals only because our changes in mood frightens and are misunderstood or we are judged by past episodes.
I have been told I think you just do not need more sleep because you age getting older or you knew that it was coming just go with the flow. These comments and/or advice do not help me in any way.
So now I watch what I say when I say it. But my family did help me in one when and I am grateful my brother kept track of my emails and saw the pattern that my moodswings have taken so I know what and when to expect the depression and mania so that is a plus. But to share how and why I go through changes in my mood no I will not share again.
Some people are just uncomfortable with the idea of having a mental disorder and I do not feel the need to tell all of my diagnosis ie. psychosis, suicidal thoughts and attempts etc. For me this sharing of information has not proven to help me at all. Some bipolars fell that they may need the support of their family or close friends but think before you do. Is this beneficial or will this cause more stress on you trying to explain your symptoms and how you feel to someone who really has no idea of how you feel or what your symptoms mean.
Times when I need comforting or for someone to step in when my financial affairs are a disaster are not received with the help that I need and having someone to talk to just creates more intense moodswings. Moodswings sometimes seem so normal that people often blow them off as normal feels especially hypomania and mild depression but we know how they can become worse without medical intervention. Sometimes we a placed in hospitals only because our changes in mood frightens and are misunderstood or we are judged by past episodes.
I have been told I think you just do not need more sleep because you age getting older or you knew that it was coming just go with the flow. These comments and/or advice do not help me in any way.
So now I watch what I say when I say it. But my family did help me in one when and I am grateful my brother kept track of my emails and saw the pattern that my moodswings have taken so I know what and when to expect the depression and mania so that is a plus. But to share how and why I go through changes in my mood no I will not share again.
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Just Plain Abuse and Dangerous Treatment
Received this email and it is a dreadful truth I am hearing more and more people who are being treated for various problems not associated with psychotic symptoms using these drugs. Seroquel is the most common prescribed for simple insomnia and it is a terrible thing due to the side effects which includes diabetes. People really need to do their research before accepting this treatment. It is like substance abuse and the unaware patient is at risk Hate to see this sort of thing but at least it is being addressed by some.
Anti-psychotic drugs given for wrong illnesses: Half of prescriptions are for conditions that are not mental illnesses
- Elderly are twice as likely to be given the drugs, despite risk of death
- They may be used to control agitation to make life easier for care workers
- In 2004 doctors were told not to use anti-psychotics except as a last resort
More than half of prescriptions for anti-psychotic drugs in Britain are for conditions other than serious mental illnesses, say researchers.
And the elderly are twice as likely to be prescribed the drugs as people in their 40s, even though they are linked to a higher risk of premature death in older people.
The drugs, often dubbed the ‘chemical cosh’ because they are wrongly used to sedate dementia patients, are licensed for serious mental illnesses such as schizophrenia and bipolar disorder.
Dignity for the elderly: The elderly are twice as likely to be prescribed anti-psychotic drugs as people in their 40s, even though they are linked to a higher risk of premature death in older people. File picture
But a study of GPs’ prescriptions between 2007 and 2011, using an electronic database of anonymous patient records, found that less than half were prescribed the drugs for these conditions.
Often they were handed out for anxiety, sleep problems and personality disorders, as well as dementia, even though doctors have been told to prescribe them only as a last resort.
This ‘off label’ or unlicensed prescribing resulted in older people with conditions such as dementia and anxiety getting them, says the study published online by the journal BMJ Open.
Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2879902/Anti-psychotic-drugs-given-wrong-illnesses-Half-prescriptions-conditions-not-mental-illnesses.html#ixzz3MXlBx1EM
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Monday, November 17, 2014
Saturday, November 1, 2014
Could Life Get Any Stranger
Very odd I just had a doctor's appointment on Thursday and the nurse practitioner said that she would consult the psychiatrist to see if this med Topamax would be helpful for me in conjunction with the other 2 I take. I do not believe in loading up on drugs been there took about 10 all together with little helpful results. I really do not want to add any more drugs but I went through my google alerts and this article popped up. Could this be an answer An answer for my problems that I have just been too blinded to see while researching for these blogs. I do not really know and will read it over again and then decide for myself if this can end the chaos that is my life.
I am a little hopeful but also a little afraid that I will be catapulted into a major manic high or crash into another deep depression and destroy all that I have accomplished in the past 4 to 5 years. But what if? It is now at a maybe so maybe not stage but I think I will try a lot is at stack but it never hurts to try or so they say a mistake is just a long way around to finding the right answer.
Here is the article link
http://helpingmeds.com/
Could life be any stranger?
I am a little hopeful but also a little afraid that I will be catapulted into a major manic high or crash into another deep depression and destroy all that I have accomplished in the past 4 to 5 years. But what if? It is now at a maybe so maybe not stage but I think I will try a lot is at stack but it never hurts to try or so they say a mistake is just a long way around to finding the right answer.
Here is the article link
http://helpingmeds.com/
Could life be any stranger?
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
How a Person with Bipolar Thinks | Bipolar Burble Blog | Natasha Tracy
An interesting article on a website that I found while browsing Different opinion and thoughts about bipolar disorder Do not know if I agree with it but found it interesting
How a Person with Bipolar Thinks | Bipolar Burble Blog | Natasha Tracy
How a Person with Bipolar Thinks | Bipolar Burble Blog | Natasha Tracy
Saturday, August 30, 2014
A New Way of Life
This is an article that describes a vastly difference in the attitudes of the government when it comes to the mentally ill. Hopefully this action will bring changes toward the plight of the mentally ill and be a president in the thinking of society. This was not written by me but reflects my belief in the responsibility of the powers that be to stop the stigma that the mentally ill face.
California prisons to dramatically alter treatment for mentally ill inmates
Read more here: http://www.sacbee.com/2014/08/29/6665386/california-prisons-to-dramatically.html#storylink=cpy
California prisons to dramatically alter treatment for mentally ill inmates
Published: Friday, Aug. 29, 2014 - 5:57 pm
Four months after a federal judge in Sacramento declared that conditions for mentally ill inmates in the state’s prisons were “horrific,” California corrections officials unveiled sweeping new policies that will house them in specially designed units, provide greater time out of their cells and offer vastly increased treatment for the ill prisoners.
The new policies, outlined in a filing Friday in federal court, dramatically alter the manner in which tens of thousands of state prison inmates are to be treated, and are designed to reduce the number of prisoner suicides and deaths.
“This is a tremendous breakthrough in the long struggle to bring treatment of mentally ill inmates into line with the Constitution,” said Michael Bien, lead attorney for the inmates.
“There was a different atmosphere during the negotiations with Corrections on these modifications. We felt we were listened to. We didn’t get everything we wanted, but there was an openness that has not been there in the past. We felt there was an acknowledgment that the old ways were not effective, and even dangerous for the inmates.
Bien said one of the most significant elements of the new plan is the “case-by-case, length-of-stay review” of every inmate in segregation, which corrections officials agreed to even though it is not called for in U.S. District Judge Lawrence K. Karlton’s April order mandating changes.
“We anticipate that process will show us that many seriously mentally ill prisoners who are in segregation do not need to be there,” he said.
“Today could be a real milestone in the history of this litigation.”
The new policies call for the creation of short-term and long-term housing units where mentally ill inmates will have access to regular psychiatric care, as well as exercise and recreational equipment and greatly increased time out of their cells, the California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation said.
“CDCR will provide games and exercise equipment for inmate use on the exercise yards,” the court filing states. “Ninety minutes per week of out-of-cell time will consist of a structured therapeutic group activity.”
The policies are designed to get roughly 2,450 mentally ill inmates out of solitary confinement cells where they have little access to other human beings or the ability to exercise outside, leading to further deterioration of their emotional and mental stability. Lawyers for the inmates have fought for years to improve conditions for their clients, many of whom end up in ultra-secure housing as punishment for violations stemming from their mental illnesses and an inability to control their actions and understand the consequences.
Prison officials say the new policies exceed what Karlton ordered in April, following months of testimony on how mentally ill inmates are treated and how deeply ill some are. Evidence included testimony about one San Quentin inmate who was so sick he believed he was living in a church. Others were described as living naked, acting out and smearing feces on their cell walls and themselves, sometimes sparking the use of large amounts of pepper spray against them.
Karlton ordered the changes after graphic testimony and video displays of mentally ill inmates being pepper-sprayed repeatedly for seemingly minor offenses. The corrections department already has changed its policies to sharply restrict the use of force against such inmates.
Friday’s policy revisions offer “a robust mental health care program,” the department said, including daily rounds by psychiatric technicians to check on inmates and daily meetings between custody staff and mental health workers to “discuss any current behavioral issues or concerns.” Corrections officials could not give an estimate on the cost of the changes.
There are about 30,000 inmates considered to have a mental illness among the 116,000 housed in the state’s 34 adult prisons. The new policies are designed to discard a culture in which mental health staffers felt their concerns for the patients often were ignored and their instructions often overruled by custody staff in the name of security.
Inmate lawyers say the harsh conditions their clients have sometimes been subjected to exacerbate their illnesses. The new policies are aimed at avoiding that outcome by offering secure, standalone units where mentally ill inmates do not have to interact with the general population and can have more freedom of movement and more regular care.
“Standalone unit cells are provided electricity, allowing each inmate to have an electrical appliance in his cell,” a report on the policies explains. “Each inmate in the standalone unit will receive a general orientation packet and a (workbook), as well as pen fillers, paper, a calendar, a radio provided on the first day of placement, nonfiction and fiction books, regular offering of puzzles, crosswords, games, current events materials, the unit’s menu, and personal property such as photographs and notebooks.”
A major focus will be on getting inmates out of their cells to exercise or play with balls or games. Inmates in short-term housing will get 20 hours a week of such time, double what they are afforded in administrative segregation units.
“If adopted by the court, each inmate will now be offered out-of-cell time at least once a day, 7 days a week,” the policy states.
Karlton, who has overseen for nearly a quarter century the legal battle over how mentally ill inmates are treated, signed off on the revised policies Friday afternoon, marking what is likely to be the final order he will issue that dramatically reshapes California prison policy before his retirement Oct. 1.
Read more here: http://www.sacbee.com/2014/08/29/6665386/california-prisons-to-dramatically.html#storylink=cpy
Friday, August 29, 2014
The degrading Ignorant Piece of Work
This article is one of the most offensive that I have ever read I do not see how people can be so ignorant to publish this sort of thing I will write a comment about what I think of this and my comments can be pretty negative.
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Wednesday, August 13, 2014
The Right to Be
Right now the direction that the mental health workers is not the path that
most people with a mental illness need. The right to their own self determination
in all areas of their lives
is being denied. The right to be treated with dignity and respect leads to
the person to lose their self respect and the ability to determine what is
in their own self interest. He mental health workers have been part of
the system that was originally designed to aid the person with a
mental illness the opportunity to move on in life and to thrive
in society rather than being entrenched in a system that was designed
to assist.
There are still people with serious mental illnesses still struggle
to have the fundamental right to determine how they wish to have a
quality life and, to make meaningful decisions about their own lives.
Society and the system still harbor stigmas concerning mental illnesses and
the families and the system often limit the persons rights
in the name of humanity. In the United States there is still
discrimination against the mentally ill.
The system now serves as a trap that is difficult
to get out of once you become a statistic.
The clients of the system fail to attain the life
that they were promised and so the system
fails again. Some who are independent enough
fight for the right for: access to recovery services
and support in the community; The development of
life plans for those who want professional or peer support;
education and support for self management of their mental illness;
the access to government benefits to fulfill personal rehabilitation
and recovery plans
The right to confidentiality and access to all records and documents
about themselves and the treatment plans; the ability to live in
places separate from treatment or services;; access to
traditional mental health programs ; and to have access
to alternative treatment, such as natural remedies and
non traditional treatments.
What society and the system need to revamp the very system
that promised to give the support as needed to individuals
and not as a group of numbers and grant the mentally ill
their basic rights as people...
Sunday, August 10, 2014
From the People To the People
From the People to the People
Or for the people. People always ask “What is it like being bipolar”? The question has many answers. People with bipolar disorder have various symptoms in common but like everyone they are individuals with their own faults and imperfections. What they do have in common is the highs and lows but how they are displayed varies from person to person and takes a professional to diagnose. Writing is a form of therapy and most bipolars are very creative in putting their thoughts, feelings and ideas in written form although sometimes it is seen as hypergraphia and seems to be incoherent.
These writings are from a website where you can express yourself anonymously and share your stories with others. I post these as they were written grammar and spelling unchanged.
These are some experiences which a few bipolars have shared. The site offers the personal insight into many people's lives and it sometimes comes up with interesting ways of dealing with bipolar disorder or ways not to deal with being bipolar. Writing is recommended for many mental disorders or for anyone an these stories whether they are true or not are expressions of people who are looking for answers. Whether or not those questions will be answered is up to the readers. I post these as they were written grammar and spelling unchanged. So here is a side of bipolar life that you may or may not relate to .This may help or not in our bipolar life but they are interesting!
Looking For Answers, Constantly
I was diagnosed bipolar about 7 years ago when i was 19, or at least that was one diagnosis they considered after my first crisis. every year in early spring i start to go manic which lasts about 2 weeks as i start to go back on my meds. some of the manic episodes were terrible experiences but nonetheless i've tried for 7 years to cope with it without meds as i'm a firm believer that there is more than one solution to any problem. this last manic episode, however much fun it was, really got to worrying my friends and family and i've decided to continue with my meds as its just not worth the energy not to. i've always wanted to help and be a positive influence to the people around me. keeping cool, medicated, and not worrying others is a better state to accomplish this. in recent years i've studied up on buddhist philosophy and positivism which has help me keep a positive outlook on life adn deel with the depressive phase. damn, these days i can't believe just how much i used to dwell on the negative.
whay challanges me these days and what i seek to discover is the energy that feels so real during my manic phases. its humbling to come down off the high and realize that many of my perceptions and realities weren't shared by the greater populations. i wouldn't go so far to call them dellusions, just misconceptions. i've read some about bipolar and spiritual experiences. i believe in these energies and spirits based on my own experiences (mostly during my normal phases). one article i've read argues that spirits often take advantage on a week minds in ustable states.
i have come to a firm conclusion of what reality is and my cosmovision based on all the buddhism, taoism, positivism, and other paths that i've studied. its not something i take passivley. i've pondered much on the nature of what is real (to which my bipolar experiences have contributed). despite my respectively erroneous perceptions, i feel very much connected, and this last episode, harmonious with whats around me. i don't know if my meds will hinder this as the next episode approaches, if it does i'm okay with it, being healthy is more important. i'd like to hear other's ideas on the matter. while these episodes make it hard to manage daily life, the energy that i feel is appealing. and while i sometimes come to erroneous conclusions about the circumstances around me, i feel a harmony that is comforting.
i apologize that my thoughts aren't very organized. i didn't take the time to do so. i hope they're clear enough to give a response!
A letter to myself.
I hate you.
I thought you were better.
3 years of lying.
Saying life was better.
All the while,
In denial.
Stopping medication.
"Clarity."
Moving across the country.
"Solidarity."
Losing jobs...
Wrecking relationships.
Burning bridges.
No doctor visits.
New relationship...
New requirements.
Too much stress...
No mental quietness.
An argument,
Resort to alcohol....
A HUGE...car crash.
A DUI...
A broken light pole...
Cost me time in the hole.
Broken ribs.
Broken hand and jaw.
All because I was invincible...
And broke the law.
Dues paid
By someone else
It's always the story
Never blame myself.
Always thirsty,
Never satisfied...
Even when I know
Christ has saved my life
Eternal soul
Can it be at ease?
God please help me...
I'm on my knees.
I thought I was fine...
I know I'm not.
3 years of lies...
Opportunities shot.
No hope for gain...
All showing is loss.
I wish I could change...
That's a line I can't cross.
I feel doomed.
I've realized...
I am sick.
Should be institutionalized.
It's for the best.
It's what is safe.
"It'll help you grow."
"You'll feel safe."
"You'll learn what's right."
"You'll learn what's true."
"You'll learn to cope..."
"With being you."
"Medication can help you through..."
"And life won't be..."
"...so hard for you."
What's a bipolar girl to do?
I hate you.
I thought you were better.
3 years of lying.
Saying life was better.
All the while,
In denial.
Stopping medication.
"Clarity."
Moving across the country.
"Solidarity."
Losing jobs...
Wrecking relationships.
Burning bridges.
No doctor visits.
New relationship...
New requirements.
Too much stress...
No mental quietness.
An argument,
Resort to alcohol....
A HUGE...car crash.
A DUI...
A broken light pole...
Cost me time in the hole.
Broken ribs.
Broken hand and jaw.
All because I was invincible...
And broke the law.
Dues paid
By someone else
It's always the story
Never blame myself.
Always thirsty,
Never satisfied...
Even when I know
Christ has saved my life
Eternal soul
Can it be at ease?
God please help me...
I'm on my knees.
I thought I was fine...
I know I'm not.
3 years of lies...
Opportunities shot.
No hope for gain...
All showing is loss.
I wish I could change...
That's a line I can't cross.
I feel doomed.
I've realized...
I am sick.
Should be institutionalized.
It's for the best.
It's what is safe.
"It'll help you grow."
"You'll feel safe."
"You'll learn what's right."
"You'll learn what's true."
"You'll learn to cope..."
"With being you."
"Medication can help you through..."
"And life won't be..."
"...so hard for you."
What's a bipolar girl to do?
Out of the Ashes....
It took great tragedy in my life to finally be diagnosed as bipolar. The final blow came after I lost everything I owned in a house fire. Being displaced from your home and trying to cope when your mind does not want to cope wreaks havoc on relationships and your own sense of self. Five months after the fire my boyfriend had walked out saying he couldn't stand see the sadness that had become my life. I had always been the fun one, full of life, always laughing and suddenly my despair was getting worse each day. I found myself seeking out new friends that were more troubled than myself....misery loves company or so it has been said. I stock piled pills of all sorts. They were easy to come by and even easier to throw into their hiding place. I had no idea what pills were what after a while....it was just a case full pills of all shapes, sizes and colors....at the time I wasn't even cognicent of why I was saving them....until one day I decided I needed to sleep. It had been 3 days since I'd slept and I had sunk into a depression and paranoid state that caused me to confine myself to my home. I couldn't even bring myself to check the mail. I was certain that in the mail would be something horrible...never did figure out what but I knew something bad was coming by mail. I took a few pills so that I could sleep the day away. After 30 minutes I took a few more because I didn't think the first ones were working. Then I got confused and couldn't remember if I had taken any pills so I took a few more. An hour later I still couldn't fall asleep and since I didn't think I had taken any pills at all I took a few more and so the cycle began. A full 12 hours later I was still pacing the house. Staggering would be a better choice of words. My boyfriend came home after an overnight shift at work and found me pacing, pupils wildly dialated, speech slurred and my words made no sense. He later told me that it hurt him that I had no regard for life and that he would not stand by and wonder when he would come home too late to save me. I don't recall any of these events and I was never able to convince anyone that my intention that day was not suicide. Maybe subconciously it was, who knows, it may have been. But it didn't start out to be that way and I do not know when my mind may have taken me to that place. My life ended that day in so many ways and it took years of therapy, medications, repairing of relationships with friends, family and coworkers to finally come to terms with what it means to be bipolar. Because of these struggles I have a new life. A life far better than I ever imagined I would have. I have a loving husband, a beautiful daughter, more friends than I can keep up with, and a career that I love. I no longer mind the stigma of being bipolar. I believe that being bipolar has allowed me to experience more and to share these experiences with others in an effort to ease their pain. I am creative, funny and genuine. I will never hide who I am again. I will never apologize for being wired differently from other people. I like who I am and fortunately so do many other people. I hope that anyone who is diagnosed with bipolar disorder can find the strength to embrace it rather than hide from it or ignore it. It does not go away and it can not be managed alone. I wish you all the peace that I have found. I still struggle with the ups and downs and still don't always recognize when I'm flipping back and forth but I'm learning everyday.
Thank you for listening to my story! Feel free to share yours with me....I think we can all learn from each other!
My Story
I have bipolar disorder, I live for now and now is all I've got... I smile and live until the next one comes along and that carries me to the next and so on.... It's ok, I'm ok,I Am Bipolar
Me Too
I always Change my mood really Fast
I can be with you laughing my @SS off, then in a minute i can be mad and depressed for no reason
I can be with you laughing my @SS off, then in a minute i can be mad and depressed for no reason
for now... I can live and if I don't that's ok too...
From Bipolar.com
Understanding Suicide
Suicide is a serious risk for people with bipolar disorder, sometimes called manic depression. By learning more about suicide, you're taking an active step in knowing more about your illness.
Here are some facts about bipolar disorder and suicide:
Most suicide attempts occur during a depressed or mixed episode.
Suicide may also occur during an episode of mania, or when a person is going into or coming out of depression or mania. This can happen even if he or she seems to be feeling better.
Up to half of people with bipolar disorder make at least 1 suicide attempt.
Nearly 1 in 5 people with bipolar disorder commits suicide.
People with bipolar disorder who misuse alcohol or drugs have a higher risk of suicide.
Understanding suicidal thoughts
Considering suicide means you need to get help to control your bipolar disorder symptoms.
It's important to know that suicidal thoughts are symptoms of an illness — not "who you are."
Suicidal thoughts may not just go away on their own. That's why you need to get help. The right treatment can help you feel better.
If you are thinking about suicide:
Call 911to get help immediately before you act on those thoughts.
Talk with your healthcare provider or therapist.
Don't stay alone. Call a friend or family member who can watch out for you and tell them not to leave you alone.
Call the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) if you need someone to talk to. Or call a local crisis hotline (many hotlines put their numbers right in the phone book). You may want to write those phone numbers in a place that's easy to get to in case you need them.
This is general information only. Please call your healthcare provider or therapist for more information.
Other things that may help if you have thoughts of suicide:
Get atreatment planand stick with it.The right treatment can help people with bipolar disorder feel better. Going to your healthcare provider, taking your medicines, understanding your symptoms, taking good care of yourself — these are part of taking an active role in your treatment.
Find someone you can talk openly withabout your feelings and thoughts when you are depressed. Other than your healthcare provider or therapist, you might talk to trusted family members, friends, or clergy.
Do not use street drugs or alcohol.Death by suicide can result from sudden impulses. It's important to avoid anything that adds to these impulses.
Learn to recognize your warning signs of changing moods.Warning signs may be different for different people. Over time, you may be able to learn how to accept them, instead of being angry or disgusted with yourself. Knowing signs of mood changes also can help you make sure you are in a safe place if you do start to think of suicide.
Connect with other people.It may seem hard to do, but social time with others may help you feel better.
Participate in productive, enjoyable activities.Getting involved in meaningful activities may help your mood.
Do something physical.Physical activities may have a positive effect on your mood. They may help you feel better. Remember to first ask your healthcare provider before starting any exercise program.
Keep a journal of your thoughts.Some people find it helpful to keep a journal.
WHY BRING THIS OUT NOW.... MUST BE A REASON I'M READING UP ON IT. HERE I AM ADMITTING THAT I NEED HELP... HIT A NEW LOW HERE AND NOT SURE HOW TO GET OUT. PLEASE DON'T ALLOW YOURSELF TO REACH MY LEVEL... TAKE YOUR MEDS, GET HELP WHEN NEEDED AND TALK TO SOMEONE... DON'T BE LIKE ME
...ALWAYS
It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply. I remind myself that before I had been diagnosed... I managed. It was hard, but I managed. We gotta remember that life provides us with the skills and tools to handle our demo
The True Me...
yes.. i am bipolar, i should confess not share my story. it is not a good life when ur bipolar.. it is not a "moody" matter, mania is not fun, irritability is not fun and medications are not fun. sometimes i feel like my day will not end due to these jitters in my head it seems like a stair steps neither go up or down, today is today always is today!!! i feel crazy, but i am not crazy... i am just bipolar..
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I Have Bipolar Disorder But Still Live Life
☺really ?? How Does Bipolar Disorder Stop You From Living ?
please Id love any comments or messages talking about how bipolar disorder changed your life and what you noticed was different thank you for any comments