Crafting maniac

 Hey everybody. It is wena. 10 years later new housing people and environment but as we know things never stay the same 

   Well that's except for mood swings for some of us, but never give up hope.  The new nurse practitioner snatched away the lamictal after 20 or 30 years.  And of course I had a massive mood upheaval. I am rapid but I was going up and down like a freaked out yo-yo. Long story short emergency call. Crisis managed to stay out of the hospital but insurance made me wait for increased zyprexa 30mg went on for 3 days.  Finally went through And amazingly it's working not perfect still have moo swings but I actually sleep with the help of Benadryl 

  Unfortunately I opened my mouth about being bipolar and of course they have heard of the term but have no idea what it is 

  Bipolar violence has become explanation for e everything so they think they know what they are talking about when they have no clue of the mood swings just you are mentally ill and unhinged.  I live with seniors some late 90s and they are just Seniors in with their own way of thinking.  Alot of them anyway some have nothing better to do than sit turning cards over and gossiping.  One of them who ran the craft club we had here is a massive massive control freak and has settled on me as usual.

She claims her son is bipolar and he is trying to get disability he is in his 50s at least stupid. He was in printing and the job market changed so he is out of work depressed and trying for disability.  Don't get me wrong disability is a lifesaver but I don't recommend it unless there's no other way.

Anyway I am rambling I just want to post some of my stuff I have been doing trying hard to keep sane and live my bipolar life. These are cardboard creations because I am in debt lost my credit card and don't have savings just doing what I can with what I have. I make Hot glue figurines plaster and now paper mache here's some I have been working on this week. 

This isn't grammatically correct.  I am just in the mood to share. It has been 10 years.

Well here it is and I will be back as usual.

A New Way of Living

Well now I have a new way of living. Living with my "gifts" of being Bipolar and my "curses".

I try to do some sort of craft everyday. Most of the time the drives take over anyway so I do crafts everyday, every night and every minute in between.  My crafts club is on  Tues o n Sunday my mood swings up high I do not know if this is because of the my new life or my moodswings have just changed so much They are now every other day so I swing up and down drastically.  This wa a problem until I focused and realized that this was happening and they are even more rapid and precise they are very very regular so I pass from one pole to the other. My moodswings are not so drastic in intensity I am rarely suicidal badly depressed stay in bed barely moving but I do not attempt to take my life anymore so this is a blessing. But the drives are intense but predictable so I am learning when they will become a problem I cqan control most of the money spending even with unlimited online access to stores amd I have reduced coffee and soda consumption along with the increased sugar I had started so physically I am healthier.  My Psoriasis is under control for the most part I find that inclement weather rain, snow and storms trigger activity in the symptoms but am learning to "taalk: my way out of a bad flareup.


So I am learning to live my new life and adjusting to the problems of Life and Living and I think I am doing a very good job of it.  I am happier than I have been in so many years that I cannot remember what it was like during the bad times.  Life has its ups and downs still without my moodswings and the highs and nlows and the ones in life I would be lost.


 This is my life and I am loving it

Voices from the Past

HI

Been a while. I was just fooling around on the computer and ran across an old site which has closed sadly it was interesting but anyway I found an article o  Bipolar Disorder a question Here it is, it has a comment that is in reference to these blogs which is why I am writing this now and a very big complement

It caused 

I Have Bipolar Disorder But Still Live Life

☺really ?? How Does Bipolar Disorder Stop You From Living ? 

please Id love any comments or messages talking about how bipolar disorder changed your life and what you noticed was different thank you for any comments

PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD 18-21, F3 Responses Dec 5, 2010

so much of my life to change. It caused ME to change. I miss being able to just be myself and not have to worry about triggers or medications, etc. I miss who I was before this happened, when I developed the anxiety and had to be a slave to medications that have horrible side effects. I miss being able to be social without having panic attacks all the time. I miss being upbeat and optimistic about life and not having to deal with some ****** disease. That's just me, but I also sound like I might be in a depressive phase. Thank you for this post it is a good point to ask how this might change your life, when it really shouldn't change you. We're still people and we are just as capable as everyone else - I strongly believe that. I also believe we were just given an extra challenge that "god/source/etc" thinks we can get through. Life isn't all that bad. We just have to work on ourselves and stay positive. :)

moleculeus22-25, FDec 19, 2013

How do you know you have it good question? I have always had it but was treated for clinical depression for many years. I'm 58, I was diagnosed with bi-polar when I was 40. I've struggled all my life. The last couple of years I have been in a counselling program that treated my borderline personality disorder it also helped with my bi-polar disorder. I only went to the doctor when I was depressed. The anti-depressants I was given probably contributed the high mania episodes. I have bi-polar one the worst form of bi-polar. Would you believe you probably won't know when the bi-polar is speaking and not you. The symptoms are definitely not condusive to self awareness. Then with most of us there is some form of denial. Up until recently I just cycled and cycled and wasn't able to function effectively at all. It would take a book to tell you about bi-polar but there is a lady who blogs about it and is very informative. Her blog address is (lovetohatebywena.blogspot.com.) I just read 7 of her entries and she is right on with her information you'll love her.

rubyetuesday61-65, FJan 30, 20121 

Thankyou:]

PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD18-21, FJan 30, 20121 

Hi, I'll bet your world is turned upside down right now. But it may be a relief to find out why you have the mood swings you have. Dealing with bi-polar is an attitude. The most difficult task is to trust the people who support you, doctors, counsellors and yourself. You are doing a great job of starting out by asking questions. If there is anything I can do please let me know. I have lived with bi-polar my whole life.

rubyetuesday61-65, FJan 27, 20121 

Really how do you know you have it??when is it the bipolar speaking and not you?? lol and how old are you now how it changed the way you are now lol please get back to me messege me or reply back here thankyou:]

PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD18-21, FJan 28, 2012

A True Mind Lost

John Nash: Subject of 'A Beautiful Mind' and His Wife Killed in New Jersey Crash, Police Say

The 86-year-old mathematician and his wife, 82-year-old Alicia Nash, died in a taxi crash on the New Jersey Turnpike Saturday

This gifted man fought the battle with a major mental disorder schizophrenia but continued to live a fulfilling life. He was an inspiration to all and will be remembered for all the mentally ill community for the truly beautiful mind.

Understanding Different Mental Disorders

I have to confess that although I am bipolar with my own mental disorder I am lost when it comes to understanding other people with a different disorder.

 Today we had a flood in the basement and it was found by a person with panic disorder. The panic episode became overwhelming to both of us. I did not understand why the screaming and hysterical behavior was part of her disorder. As I was trying to get emergency help the screaming became directed at me and I was totally lost for an understanding of what she was going through.

I have to say I do not understand much even though I writing about different disorders. This has shown  me that I can not make people understand what I experience with my mood swings.

And so I have made a new resolution to not to not explain to others what I actually go through and trying to make them understand or for any empathy as to what I am going through during my episodes

I can not ask for help from others and have to control my symptoms the only thing that I can do. I can not control the disorder and so have to deal with the symptoms the best that I can.

Understanding mental disorders are difficult for me as it is for someone who does not have one.
And that is true of most people that is the differences in mental disorders.

You are never too old to learn the different mental disorders and today made me realize that I can not.

Sharing Your Diagnoisis

I had decided to share my bipolar disorder to my close family members and organization that houses me and now I find that it was a mistake. Sharing information is only frustrating "normal" people are just unable to understand the complexities of bipolar disorder. Too often I hear " a lot of people have insomnia" or " your do not need as much sleep as you get older" or  " everyone feels depressed sometimes" These comments are beginning to effect my moodswings even more making life more difficult than it should be.

Some people are just uncomfortable with the idea of having a mental disorder and I do not feel the need to tell all of my diagnosis ie. psychosis, suicidal thoughts and attempts etc. For me this sharing of information has not proven to help me at all. Some bipolars fell that they may need the support of their family or close friends but think before you do. Is this beneficial or will this cause more stress on you trying to explain your symptoms and how you feel to someone who really has no idea of how you feel or what your symptoms mean.

Times when I need comforting or for someone to step in when my financial affairs are a disaster are not received with the help that I need and having someone to talk to just creates more intense moodswings. Moodswings sometimes seem so normal that people often blow them off as normal feels especially hypomania and mild depression but we know how they can become worse without medical intervention. Sometimes we a placed in hospitals only because our changes in mood frightens and are misunderstood or we are judged by past episodes.

I have been told I think you just do not need more sleep because you age getting older or you knew that it was coming just go with the flow. These comments and/or advice do not help me in any way.

So now I watch what I say when I say it. But my family did help me in one when and I am grateful my brother kept track of my emails and saw the pattern that my moodswings have taken so I know what and when to expect the depression and mania so that is a plus. But to share how and why I go through changes in my mood no I will not share again.

Just Plain Abuse and Dangerous Treatment

Received this email and it is a dreadful truth I am hearing more and more people who are being treated for various problems not associated with psychotic symptoms using these drugs. Seroquel is the most common prescribed for simple insomnia and it is a terrible thing due to the side effects which includes diabetes. People really need to do their research before accepting this treatment. It is like substance abuse and the unaware patient is at risk Hate to see this sort of thing but at least it is being addressed by some.

Anti-psychotic drugs given for wrong illnesses: Half of prescriptions are for conditions that are not mental illnesses 

• Elderly are twice as likely to be given the drugs, despite risk of death
• They may be used to control agitation to make life easier for care workers 
• In 2004 doctors were told not to use anti-psychotics except as a last resort

By JENNY HOPE, MEDICAL CORRESPONDENT FOR THE DAILY MAIL

PUBLISHED: 18:33 EST, 18 December 2014 | UPDATED: 03:18 EST, 19 December 2014

 
 
 
 
 

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More than half of prescriptions for anti-psychotic drugs in Britain are for conditions other than serious mental illnesses, say researchers.

And the elderly are twice as likely to be prescribed the drugs as people in their 40s, even though they are linked to a higher risk of premature death in older people.

The drugs, often dubbed the ‘chemical cosh’ because they are wrongly used to sedate dementia patients, are licensed for serious mental illnesses such as schizophrenia and bipolar disorder.

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But a study of GPs’ prescriptions between 2007 and 2011, using an electronic database of anonymous patient records, found that less than half were prescribed the drugs for these conditions.

Often they were handed out for anxiety, sleep problems and personality disorders, as well as dementia, even though doctors have been told to prescribe them only as a last resort. 

This ‘off label’ or unlicensed prescribing resulted in older people with conditions such as dementia and anxiety getting them, says the study published online by the journal BMJ Open.

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2879902/Anti-psychotic-drugs-given-wrong-illnesses-Half-prescriptions-conditions-not-mental-illnesses.html#ixzz3MXlBx1EM
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Spirals of Life bywena

Could Life Get Any Stranger

Very odd I just had a doctor's appointment on Thursday and the nurse practitioner said that she would consult the psychiatrist to see if this med Topamax would be helpful for me in conjunction with the other 2 I take.  I do not believe in loading up on drugs been there took about 10 all together with little helpful results. I really do not want to add any more drugs but I went through my google alerts and this article popped up. Could this be an answer An answer for my problems that I have just been too blinded to see while researching for these blogs. I do not really know and will read it over again and then decide for myself if this can end the chaos that is my life.

I am a little hopeful but also a little afraid that I will be catapulted into a major manic high or crash into another deep depression and destroy all that I have accomplished in the past 4 to 5 years. But what if? It is now at a maybe so maybe not stage but I think I will try a lot is at stack but it never hurts to try or so they say a mistake is just a long way around to finding the right answer.
Here is the article link

http://helpingmeds.com/


Could life be any stranger?

How a Person with Bipolar Thinks | Bipolar Burble Blog | Natasha Tracy

An interesting article on a website that I found while browsing Different opinion and thoughts about bipolar disorder Do not know if I agree with it but found it interesting



How a Person with Bipolar Thinks | Bipolar Burble Blog | Natasha Tracy

A New Way of Life

This is an article that describes a vastly difference in the attitudes of the government when it comes to the mentally ill. Hopefully this action will bring changes toward the plight of the mentally ill and be a president in the thinking of society.  This was not written by me but reflects my belief in the responsibility of the powers that be to stop the stigma that the mentally ill face.

California prisons to dramatically alter treatment for mentally ill inmates

By Sam Stanton and Denny Walsh
sstanton@sacbee.com

Published: Friday, Aug. 29, 2014 - 5:57 pm

Four months after a federal judge in Sacramento declared that conditions for mentally ill inmates in the state’s prisons were “horrific,” California corrections officials unveiled sweeping new policies that will house them in specially designed units, provide greater time out of their cells and offer vastly increased treatment for the ill prisoners.

The new policies, outlined in a filing Friday in federal court, dramatically alter the manner in which tens of thousands of state prison inmates are to be treated, and are designed to reduce the number of prisoner suicides and deaths.

“This is a tremendous breakthrough in the long struggle to bring treatment of mentally ill inmates into line with the Constitution,” said Michael Bien, lead attorney for the inmates.

“There was a different atmosphere during the negotiations with Corrections on these modifications. We felt we were listened to. We didn’t get everything we wanted, but there was an openness that has not been there in the past. We felt there was an acknowledgment that the old ways were not effective, and even dangerous for the inmates.

Bien said one of the most significant elements of the new plan is the “case-by-case, length-of-stay review” of every inmate in segregation, which corrections officials agreed to even though it is not called for in U.S. District Judge Lawrence K. Karlton’s April order mandating changes.

“We anticipate that process will show us that many seriously mentally ill prisoners who are in segregation do not need to be there,” he said.

“Today could be a real milestone in the history of this litigation.”

The new policies call for the creation of short-term and long-term housing units where mentally ill inmates will have access to regular psychiatric care, as well as exercise and recreational equipment and greatly increased time out of their cells, the California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation said.

“CDCR will provide games and exercise equipment for inmate use on the exercise yards,” the court filing states. “Ninety minutes per week of out-of-cell time will consist of a structured therapeutic group activity.”

The policies are designed to get roughly 2,450 mentally ill inmates out of solitary confinement cells where they have little access to other human beings or the ability to exercise outside, leading to further deterioration of their emotional and mental stability. Lawyers for the inmates have fought for years to improve conditions for their clients, many of whom end up in ultra-secure housing as punishment for violations stemming from their mental illnesses and an inability to control their actions and understand the consequences.

Prison officials say the new policies exceed what Karlton ordered in April, following months of testimony on how mentally ill inmates are treated and how deeply ill some are. Evidence included testimony about one San Quentin inmate who was so sick he believed he was living in a church. Others were described as living naked, acting out and smearing feces on their cell walls and themselves, sometimes sparking the use of large amounts of pepper spray against them.

Karlton ordered the changes after graphic testimony and video displays of mentally ill inmates being pepper-sprayed repeatedly for seemingly minor offenses. The corrections department already has changed its policies to sharply restrict the use of force against such inmates.

Friday’s policy revisions offer “a robust mental health care program,” the department said, including daily rounds by psychiatric technicians to check on inmates and daily meetings between custody staff and mental health workers to “discuss any current behavioral issues or concerns.” Corrections officials could not give an estimate on the cost of the changes.

There are about 30,000 inmates considered to have a mental illness among the 116,000 housed in the state’s 34 adult prisons. The new policies are designed to discard a culture in which mental health staffers felt their concerns for the patients often were ignored and their instructions often overruled by custody staff in the name of security.

Inmate lawyers say the harsh conditions their clients have sometimes been subjected to exacerbate their illnesses. The new policies are aimed at avoiding that outcome by offering secure, standalone units where mentally ill inmates do not have to interact with the general population and can have more freedom of movement and more regular care.

“Standalone unit cells are provided electricity, allowing each inmate to have an electrical appliance in his cell,” a report on the policies explains. “Each inmate in the standalone unit will receive a general orientation packet and a (workbook), as well as pen fillers, paper, a calendar, a radio provided on the first day of placement, nonfiction and fiction books, regular offering of puzzles, crosswords, games, current events materials, the unit’s menu, and personal property such as photographs and notebooks.”

A major focus will be on getting inmates out of their cells to exercise or play with balls or games. Inmates in short-term housing will get 20 hours a week of such time, double what they are afforded in administrative segregation units.

“If adopted by the court, each inmate will now be offered out-of-cell time at least once a day, 7 days a week,” the policy states.

Karlton, who has overseen for nearly a quarter century the legal battle over how mentally ill inmates are treated, signed off on the revised policies Friday afternoon, marking what is likely to be the final order he will issue that dramatically reshapes California prison policy before his retirement Oct. 1.

Read more here: http://www.sacbee.com/2014/08/29/6665386/california-prisons-to-dramatically.html#storylink=cpy

The degrading Ignorant Piece of Work

This article is one of the most offensive that I have ever read I do not see how people can be so ignorant to publish this sort of thing I will write a comment about what I think of this and my comments can be pretty negative.

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The Right to Be

Right now the direction that the mental health workers is not the path that 

most people with a mental illness need. The right to their own self determination

 in all areas of their lives

 is being denied. The right to be treated with dignity and respect leads to

 the person to lose their self respect and the ability to determine what is

 in their own self interest. He mental health workers have been part of

the system that was originally designed to aid the person with a 

mental illness the opportunity to move on in life and to thrive

 in society rather than being entrenched in a system that was designed

to assist. 

There are still people with serious mental illnesses still struggle

 to have the fundamental right to determine how they wish to have a

 quality life and, to make meaningful decisions about their own lives. 

Society and the system still harbor stigmas concerning mental illnesses and

 the families and the system often limit the persons rights

 in the name of humanity. In the United States there is still

 discrimination against the mentally ill.

The system now serves as a trap that is difficult

 to get out of once you become a statistic.

The clients of the system fail to attain the life 

that they were promised and so the system

 fails again. Some who are independent enough

 fight for the right for:  access to recovery services 

and support in the community; The development of 

life plans for those who want professional or peer support;

education and support for self management of their mental illness;

 the access to government benefits to fulfill personal rehabilitation

 and recovery plans

The right to confidentiality and access to all records and documents 

about themselves and the treatment plans; the ability to live in

 places separate from treatment or services;; access to 

traditional mental health programs ; and to have access

 to alternative treatment, such as natural remedies and

 non traditional treatments.

What society and the system need to revamp the very system

 that promised to give the support as needed to individuals

 and not as a group of numbers and grant the mentally ill 

their basic rights as people...