Well been a while again but i have to write about this, I have had back to back episodes of mania for 3 years almost. This was an over preoccupation with crafts. Seems innocent enough being production keeping busy being creative, that is what they tell you to do. But this turned to mania and along with it the drive to create and I kept all of the things i made the apt was full crowded and full the walls floors I could not clean around it and did not even try but we had inspection and again it came to the point of almost losing everything I have worked for accomplished almost lost. But I looked around and saw all the signs of a manic episode the money spent thousands the accumulation of stuff smacked me in the face and i was scared. I have not called the doctor but i plan on telling them. Now i stop 11 pm i go to bed and end the cycle. I had to almost hit bottom again before i could see and stop. I have not been eating or sleeping so I stop take inventory of what i have been doing for the day and do what i have to do to live.
just thought I would keep you updated a weird mania
Showing posts with label crafts. Show all posts
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Friday, January 20, 2017
A New Way of Living
Well now I have a new way of living. Living with my "gifts" of being Bipolar and my "curses".
I try to do some sort of craft everyday. Most of the time the drives take over anyway so I do crafts everyday, every night and every minute in between. My crafts club is on Tues o n Sunday my mood swings up high I do not know if this is because of the my new life or my moodswings have just changed so much They are now every other day so I swing up and down drastically. This wa a problem until I focused and realized that this was happening and they are even more rapid and precise they are very very regular so I pass from one pole to the other. My moodswings are not so drastic in intensity I am rarely suicidal badly depressed stay in bed barely moving but I do not attempt to take my life anymore so this is a blessing. But the drives are intense but predictable so I am learning when they will become a problem I cqan control most of the money spending even with unlimited online access to stores amd I have reduced coffee and soda consumption along with the increased sugar I had started so physically I am healthier. My Psoriasis is under control for the most part I find that inclement weather rain, snow and storms trigger activity in the symptoms but am learning to "taalk: my way out of a bad flareup.
So I am learning to live my new life and adjusting to the problems of Life and Living and I think I am doing a very good job of it. I am happier than I have been in so many years that I cannot remember what it was like during the bad times. Life has its ups and downs still without my moodswings and the highs and nlows and the ones in life I would be lost.
This is my life and I am loving it
I try to do some sort of craft everyday. Most of the time the drives take over anyway so I do crafts everyday, every night and every minute in between. My crafts club is on Tues o n Sunday my mood swings up high I do not know if this is because of the my new life or my moodswings have just changed so much They are now every other day so I swing up and down drastically. This wa a problem until I focused and realized that this was happening and they are even more rapid and precise they are very very regular so I pass from one pole to the other. My moodswings are not so drastic in intensity I am rarely suicidal badly depressed stay in bed barely moving but I do not attempt to take my life anymore so this is a blessing. But the drives are intense but predictable so I am learning when they will become a problem I cqan control most of the money spending even with unlimited online access to stores amd I have reduced coffee and soda consumption along with the increased sugar I had started so physically I am healthier. My Psoriasis is under control for the most part I find that inclement weather rain, snow and storms trigger activity in the symptoms but am learning to "taalk: my way out of a bad flareup.
So I am learning to live my new life and adjusting to the problems of Life and Living and I think I am doing a very good job of it. I am happier than I have been in so many years that I cannot remember what it was like during the bad times. Life has its ups and downs still without my moodswings and the highs and nlows and the ones in life I would be lost.
This is my life and I am loving it
Friday, January 6, 2017
An Artistic Stream of Ideas New Group
For all those crafters and or craft lovers here is my new facebook page group We are small 3 members buit there are followers who connect with all sorts of creative endevors so we have a diversified audience come look read learn teach whatever you may want to comm,ent on like share all are welcome This is a public groupd so anyone can join I needall the information that I can get about all the arts as the name says so if you are looking for a new project tips and ideas for old ones come and join us Here is a sample of posts
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1354766541221625/?ref=aymt_homepage_panel
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1354766541221625/?ref=aymt_homepage_panel
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order do not know what it is as usual a special surprise I do not care they have exce;;emt stuff and always worth the money I am getting a good stash for this the shipping is a definite plus
and I love their products reasonable too they are awesome
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