Update on My Life

It has been a long time since i have written in these blogs.
everybody must think I died.

Not the case I have been living. Living a life that I thought I would but never had the chance. When I first went on disability I thought I would spend my days crafting and going to school. That did not work out so I did crafts read studied did various things to keep me occupied but now I spend my days crafting I have decided to start writing again keeping a journal and I joined  online therapy.
I had my first session last night. I was lonely tired and bored so I went online and hooked up with a listener. He was a little slow and asked me statistics name place age and I went along so finally he said do you want to do my exclusive 6 minute throw up I said why not. Ha it was 6 minutes of typing no backspace about whatever you wanted to throw up. That was the most brilliant idea that he could have had. I loved it I typed about  y past with the bipolar mental illness the shelter the housing I found myself in and the problems I had while in this situation. He was impressed cal;led me a champion for going through all that alone, That was all I needed to lift me out of my mood I felt 100% better he was motivated and excited we chatted a little more and I signed off but I am following him he said we could schedule sessions and talk I plan on doing it. Who would think 6 minutes could make such a difference I feel motivated and energized but also tired dredging up old emotions and memories but it was good I purged and that is all that matters a place to throw up my emotions without fear of something happening beyond my control. I am in my own apt my own computer I can sign off whenever and noting will happen I feel it is a safe place and there are others to chat with there are exercises and tips on controlling and understanding yourself and then there is the LISTENER Excellent I recommend it to anyone it is 7 cups if you are interested. I urge you to try it it is not traditional therapy which I tried and failed at but am willing to try again in near future with one on one face to face that is the next step.