Once again I am off of meds. My own fault but it does not help. A week med free and no sleep I am restless and the constant talking thinking to the point of flight of ideas at night is becoming unbearable. I have resorted to popping Benadryl for relief it takes the edge off llike a tranquilizer but it has stopped making me drowsy. So sleepless energized I spend my time counting down until my appt and some relief. Social Security is doing an audit on my bank accounts which in mania read like the national debt . The money that was moved around for the past 3 years build up to too too much money for my own good. The stock trades which was so much fun at the time is now a mess that I have to report and try to explain to the authorities.
Mania looks so good when depressed now I see again that it can be just as dangerous.
Tomorrow I go to the doctor get meds and again the circles continue.
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