I wrote this awhile ago on a support, social media group and sorry to say it has not changed. Life can be so cruel and we can be cruel to ourselves but if I am going to go forward in life I think I just have to put one foot in front of the other and take one small step at a time. Hopefully I will have the time to attain my hopes and dreams.
Becoming Homeless Again
My biggest fear is becoming homeless again It has been 10 long years and I may lose everything again I have to careful that it is a learned reaction to stress of bipolar and the extreme spending of money i realize that I have a problem but after all these years still can not control it
Why I let the stressors in my life continue to bother me and why I cannot control my spending is because I am unstable but have been comforting myself with things that require a lot of money I am even buying stocks again although it is a good thing to have extra money when I need it but I tend to keep them, for a while then sell all of them and have to start over Hopefully this time this will not happen
I want to move so I need money to do so and have to cut out things that require money things that are a habit now and I really o not need to do what I have started to spend money on So I will try again to stick to a budget and save and hopefully I will not be3come too manic in the future but since I am unstable I do nt know if they can be controlled by will power
Another new beginning
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