During the past few years I have researched, joined online groups and have come up with some sites that have answers, advice and laughs about bipolar disorder. Some are sincere, some mocking, some sad but true. Here are a couple of experiences to aid you in your search for answers, help in surviving with bipolar disorder or just to try and understand someone you may know with bipolar disorder. I found them helpful at times but after all is said you are an individual as am I am each episode is different from person to person.
I Battle Depression
I want to stop taking my meds. They don't help...I've been on them since 2011. I've become lazy and increasingly lethargic from my depression lately and I have been taking them infrequently anyway. I feel like prescribing medications for people with depression (or manic depression in my case) is such a guessing game. How do I ever even know if I was given the right diagnosis or that the meds aren't doing more harm than good? I don't want to keep putting these chemicals into my body if they aren't helping me at all. I have only ever gradually gotten worse since starting them back a few years ago. Therapy has never been very beneficial for me either. When one bad thing continues to happen to me after the next, it's not like therapy is going to fix it. So, I stopped seeing my therapist a few months back as well because it just seemed like a waste of my time (and MONEY). Anybody else feel this way? Has anybody decided to stop taking their meds for good? I know all of the warnings that say not to stop taking them without discussing with your doctor, blah blah, but I am not entirely convinced my doctor(s) know what is best for me. And, I didn't just stop them completely. I guess I've been weaning myself off of them for a while.
I wanted to commit suicide twice in my life, the first time i was stopped before i took the pills. At this point i was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Disorder. I had just lost my Mom after a very long illness. I got better, but was never myself again. I few years later I got divorced. This sent me on a downward swing big time. I became morbidly depressed and attempted to take my life by cutting my wrists. It was unsuccesful and spent 2 weeks in a psychiatric clinic where I was treated for depression, I searched the clinic for items to cut myself, used what ever i could to cut myself. After 4 days of treatment for depression the psychiatrist realised my mis-diagnosis and started treating me for bipolar, there was an immediate change in my behaviour. The meds do work.
After my diagnosis and correct medication I have been able to get back onto my feet and start living my life again. I am now remarried and the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. Thanks to my meds and most importantly, the support of my amazing and wonderful husband.
For all those people suffering with BP 1 or 2. Do not dispair, there is help out there and there is hope out there. You have to pick up your head and look for it. I have been where you are now and you can get out of it and you can be happy again.
I believe the cause of manic depression is too many downs, bad treatment, then something like having a child could bring the illness to a head. You see when we are busy we keep the mind off things . When our routine is changed it effects our balanced life. This may effect our mood, diet, coping, communication, and people see you as not yourself, not well and needing help. Most of the other mothers are fine. They maybe had more support, never had been through what you experienced, maybe more support.
Some of the people that put you down are still there saying they are there for you but still effecting you now and then . This is even more difficult when they are family. We still decide to take it and put up with it, but this causes problems for our children also. So then mental health may stay in the family. Cause no one is breaking free from it. Or getting counselling.
I am saying all this because I still put up with bad situations from a family member. I should have got her out of my life a long time ago.
Word of advice is get all people who do you wrong out of your life, cause you cannot change them. Do not let your kids be effected by them. Fair enough if they don't cause you ill, then stand bye them. Any abuse should not be accepted. Even if they are mum, dad, sister, brother, auntie, uncle, grab or grandad, husband, wife, friend, neighbour. Don't take it.
There Is Hope For Bipolar Sufferers
Hi, I also suffer from Bipolar Disorder 2. Although our episodes may not be as extreme as BP 1, it should be regarded just as seriously. I hate taking meds as well, but I have to. I can see straight away when i have forgotten my meds for a few days. My moods change and i begin to feel anxious.I wanted to commit suicide twice in my life, the first time i was stopped before i took the pills. At this point i was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Disorder. I had just lost my Mom after a very long illness. I got better, but was never myself again. I few years later I got divorced. This sent me on a downward swing big time. I became morbidly depressed and attempted to take my life by cutting my wrists. It was unsuccesful and spent 2 weeks in a psychiatric clinic where I was treated for depression, I searched the clinic for items to cut myself, used what ever i could to cut myself. After 4 days of treatment for depression the psychiatrist realised my mis-diagnosis and started treating me for bipolar, there was an immediate change in my behaviour. The meds do work.
After my diagnosis and correct medication I have been able to get back onto my feet and start living my life again. I am now remarried and the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. Thanks to my meds and most importantly, the support of my amazing and wonderful husband.
For all those people suffering with BP 1 or 2. Do not dispair, there is help out there and there is hope out there. You have to pick up your head and look for it. I have been where you are now and you can get out of it and you can be happy again.
Not All Your Fault
The amount of stresses in life that someone has, the rotten childhood, the more nasty people someone has put up with, the more that someone is blamed, degraded, mentally or physically beaten, the more someone has lost all adds up and can make someone become maniacally ill. It is like a bridge that collapses with too much weight, or off the rails due to to many buckles.I believe the cause of manic depression is too many downs, bad treatment, then something like having a child could bring the illness to a head. You see when we are busy we keep the mind off things . When our routine is changed it effects our balanced life. This may effect our mood, diet, coping, communication, and people see you as not yourself, not well and needing help. Most of the other mothers are fine. They maybe had more support, never had been through what you experienced, maybe more support.
Some of the people that put you down are still there saying they are there for you but still effecting you now and then . This is even more difficult when they are family. We still decide to take it and put up with it, but this causes problems for our children also. So then mental health may stay in the family. Cause no one is breaking free from it. Or getting counselling.
I am saying all this because I still put up with bad situations from a family member. I should have got her out of my life a long time ago.
Word of advice is get all people who do you wrong out of your life, cause you cannot change them. Do not let your kids be effected by them. Fair enough if they don't cause you ill, then stand bye them. Any abuse should not be accepted. Even if they are mum, dad, sister, brother, auntie, uncle, grab or grandad, husband, wife, friend, neighbour. Don't take it.
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