How odd I was trying to have more self empowerment and keep tack of my moodswings and watch for any signs of an episode, Life seemed to be so calming and regulated. I watched for the moon's movements and cycles since I found out that my episodes seemed to travel along with the cycles of the moon. What did I expect the knowledge of phases would help me to prevent the inevitable. So when the obsession with music happened again I am putting 32 gbs of music on my mp3 player from cds that I burnt last year. Also I have an interest in languages again so I suppose I will spend hours with hypergraphia and study night and day in my hypomanic self.
Life does seem to be a constant circle for me as it is with other bipolars especially those who's disorder seems to refuses to be stable. This is an endless journey through life one which I hoped to have left behind me but I see the signs of a major manic episode.
To tell the truth I am not too disappointed these highs seem to help me to deal with my life which seem odd but there it is. It is what it is and that is the end of the story.
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